(No motivation; online source, www.presby.edu)
I can breathe again!!! I’m still not feeling terrific, but
after my hospital visit last Sunday, I’m at least “better”. They gave me two
steroid shots at the hospital and I’ve started a new prescription allergy
medication along with a new nasal spray daily. I’m not really sure which things
have really made the biggest difference, but I’m happy that I’m at least
getting there. I’m still coughing a lot though, which is frustrating. I’ve been
sick for somewhere around 2 and a half weeks from all of this. So I’ve
requested a new allergy referral so I can get testing done and figure out what
I’m having such a bad allergic reaction to this year. It is miserable though!
I got a little behind again while I was so sick the last
couple of weeks. For the first time this semester, I missed one of my reading
assignments in this class. I promised myself that I would make it up later in
the week, but I didn’t. I also ended up doing story planning for a couple of my
story posts, which I told myself I wouldn’t do, because I wanted to write
actual stories as much as possible throughout this course. I’m doing well on
points though, so I shouldn’t be too upset about it. I’m just a little
disappointed in myself is all… Going into week 12, I’m honestly not sure that I’m
going to locate my motivation again before the end of the semester… For
example, it’s technically Sunday of week 11 now and I haven’t finished my
project assignment for this week yet. Which means I’ll be doing that tomorrow
on the last day of the week. I’m hoping to prove myself wrong and try to get
motivated again in the next few days. Other than that, I’m doing well in
school. I think I’m behind by one homework / practice assignment in Spanish but
I’ll get that caught up this week too, hopefully.
On a slightly more somber note, it has not been a great week
at work. As many of you probably remember, I’m a 9-1-1 dispatcher. So, when I
say I’ve had a bad work week, you usually don’t want to ask questions. I’ll
just say that sometimes my job is mentally taxing. Some of the things I’m
exposed to regularly, people don’t want to see in their worst nightmares. I’m
not complaining, because I really love what I do. I tend to keep a cool exterior
and I think I deal well with the things I’m exposed to but occasionally, the
emotions I’ve been blocking out force their way in and I’m forced to face them.
This has been one of those week where I just have to face the reality of the horrific world we live in. I just have to remember to take care of my mental health first and foremost. I've found myself in a pretty dark place due to my job at some point in the past. So, I have to make sure and work through any negative emotions I'm feeling so I don't go back there again. =)
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