This week has been a little rough. I'm a little "behind" on my "ahead of the timeline" schedule for Mythology and Folklore and for my Spanish class. In Mythology and Folklore, I'm trying to stay one week ahead on my reading and story writing assignments, which means I should have wrote a story the day before yesterday. It has been a very bad week for me though and that just hasn't happened. I have completed everything else for the week though. I did some of it even more ahead than intended, so I guess maybe I'm not really "behind" as much as I just rearranged things so that the assignment that takes the most creative effort was left for last. In Spanish I'm just 2 assignments behind, which I'll finish today and be ahead again. So that's also not too terrible. That's the point of being ahead right? So that when you need some leeway, you can take it?
I'm dealing with a whole slew of opposing emotions right now. I'm excited about school, because I'm really enjoying my classes and I'm getting really close to graduating (with my first major and my minor at least). Spring 2018 I should be able to, actually!!
I'm also extremely excited about moving. We've got a lot more packed now. Both of our bathrooms are packed up and ready to go and my husband and I both went through and weeded out any clothing we don't wear and don't intend to keep... Then again, I'm also terrified of being in a completely new, unfamiliar place. I'm sure it'll feel like home in no time though. I think it's pretty normal to be a little skittish when moving to a new unfamiliar place.
I'm also really sad because our dog that we've had for over 10 years was really sick (he had prostate cancer or lymphoma, we're not sure which) and we had to say goodbye to him this week. We made the choice to let him go now and had him humanely put to sleep. It's honestly one of the hardest things I've ever had to do but I'm thankful that his suffering is over now and also slightly thankful that he won't have to deal with the stress of moving. Although, the selfish part of me wishes he could have stuck around and moved with us, because I love him so much and I miss him terribly already. Here are some of my favorite pictures of him and the last picture I got to take with him too.
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| (Our dog Rolo; personal photo, taken by me) |
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| (Our dog Rolo; personal photo, taken by me) |
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| (Me and our dog Rolo; personal photo, taken by my husband) |
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| (Our dog Rolo; personal photo, taken by me) |
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| (Our dog Rolo; personal photo, taken by me) |
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| (Me and our dog Rolo; personal photo, taken by me) |
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I also brought home a foster dog this week. I felt so sad for his situation that I wanted to help him and show him love. He was being mistreated by his previous owner. Kept tied up in a shed outside with a bucket of food always out, he was yelled at to shut up and verbally abused (at the least). He apparently hasn't ever been treated with affection. We will show him the love he deserves and hopefully will find him a forever home soon (anyone looking?? LOL). I regret agreeing to take him just a little, because I think it was a little too soon after our dog left us but I think I would have regretted not taking him in even more. Here are some pictures of him too.
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| (Our foster dog Hank; personal photo, taken by a friend) |
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| (Our foster dog Hank; personal photo, taken by a friend) |
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| (Our foster dog Hank; personal photo, taken by a friend) |
I hope things settle down a lot in the next week or 2. I don't particularly like all of the emotional ups and downs right now.
Oh, Chrystal, I am sending you big hugs for having to say goodbye to your Rolo. I don't know what it is like for you, but there is a bittersweetness about having a new animal come into your life because you love the new one for himself, but he also makes you think about the one you are still missing. We had a dearly beloved cat that got very sick a few years ago (during Spring Break, worst Spring Break ever)... and we couldn't bear the thought of getting another cat; he had been such a great cat. But then one stray cat showed up in our woods, and a few months later another stray cat showed up. And they both needed homes. So now we have two cats, and they are wonderful cats, but they also make us think about the guy we lost. Anyway, I am sending you a big hug. I know that rollercoaster...
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. That's so sweet of you. It's part of life for those of us with fur kids but it never gets any easier when we lose one of our babies. I'm sorry that you lost your cat too. It's so hard when this stuff happens. =(
DeleteOh, boy Chrystal. I am so sorry to read about your sweet boy. I lost my Cookie dog last summer and had to call into work the next day because I absolutely could NOT stop sobbing. Hank looks a lot like Cookie! I'm glad that you can take care of him and saved him from his abusive home. I am sending you good thoughts, vibes, and juju as you prepare for this move and continue in your classes!
ReplyDeleteIt's okay to be a bit off schedule since you worked hard to get ahead! You will catch up in no time.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry about your loss. I'm so afraid of that day and the thought makes me want to cry. I cannot imagine how difficult it was; your dog was very beautiful.
You're an amazing person for taking in the new dog! My dog was also abused and was very afraid if people touched her head (she tries to avoid strangers when they touch her head; it panics her). He's very cute!
Good luck with moving! Totally understand how you feel, so I hope you settle in quickly!